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Sunday 24 July 2011

My secretszzzz...

Halooo...
lma x update blog.
heeee...
hmmm...tgk atas...
mcam rhsia sgt r dia pnya title ne..
tp skrg bkn rhsia lg sbb otw nak gtaw la ne kan..
hahaha...
hmm...bkan secret apa jua..
cuma maw share...
yg sjak kblkgn ne...
it feels like my body is not okay..
sometimes i think I want to collapse u know...
huhuhu...
I know its sound serious,
tp ntah la..
bgi aku mcm besa2 jak..
heeee...
(ktara sgt malas nak buat cek-up)
hahahaa...
I dont know la..
sometimes my chest in pain,
my head don't ask la..
sjak kblkgn ne mmg skit jak dia..
bgbung dia dgn chest pain,
mmg rsa mcm nak mmpus pn ada da..
huhuhu...
tp xtawla smada ne mslh dunia jak atau adala lg mslh yg aku xleh ckap skrg,
but yes...
I'm in some medication problem...
but xtawla smada serius atau x..
itu only god knows more...
dan skrg ne pn aku dlm proses memulihkan diri..
so hope its getting better..
sbb bnda ne,
mmg xbaek utk diri sesiapa jak pn yg ada...
so I really hope no one will get it from me or anyone else..
Because...
it make my life so in pain...
its irritating me..
its kinda hell to me..
yes..
its hurt...
but what can I do..
huhu...
All I can do is..
hoping to God..
that it will vanish soon..
InsyaAllah..
Pray for me..
I hope it can lighten the pain..
Amin~~

p/s:whoever read this, please don't ask what the problem is, it might freaking you out...seriously k..I'm not playing...huhu..

I will cont on later...byeeee...
Assalam and good nite...

Tuesday 19 July 2011

Totally Out Of mY mInd..=_="

haloo...
lma da x blogging..
dri ari tu lg nak blogging,tp mmndngkan xda gmbr,jd rsa mcm xbest la...
jd next tym la ya d post event2 yg sblm ne..
hmm..
yes..
its a vacation tym..
tp rasanya xda erti la vacation ne...
sbb byk sgt dehh assignment and tutorial ne...
jd trpksa la sbr jak mnmpuh hdup ne..
and ntah knpa..
fkiran aku trganggu skrg..
I miss somebody so deeply..
I dont know..
mybe org tu sgt jauh dri aku,
and xlma lg dia akn lbih jauh dri skrg...
plik ne...
sjak aku cuti ne..
aku slalu sgt ingat dia..
mybe jua aku rsa msa tu smkin hampir utk dia pergi jauh,
huarghhhh!!!
sdih weyyy...
trutama lg law aku dgr lagu bruno mars-long distance,
tmbh aku nak mnangis weyyy...
apesal la cengeng sgt aku skrg ne...
arggghhhh!!!
knp,knp,knp..
stress gne..
huhuhu..
kdg2 maw jak aku ckap,umum kt tv ka,radio ka,d fb ka,
yg aku rindu dia sgt2..
arghhhh!!!
mybe aku tkut aku xtrjmpa dia kot..
its almost a year aku xjmpa dia..
so law aku xjmpa dia lg dlm taun ne..
aku pn xtrkata apa2 da..
huhuhu..
so sad..
yes...totally sad..
huhuhu...
so..
skrg apa yg prlu aku buat..
doakan yg dia baek2 jak d cna..
and smoga dia sntiasa d jaga oleh Allah..
smoga dia snang hati sntiasa...
smoga dia ada kwan yang blh dia hrpkan d cna..
sbb aku xkan ada slalu utknya..
aku xkan mampu dgar rintihan mahupun gelak dia sntiasa...
tp doa aku sntiasa ada utk dia...
mcm yg aku prnah ckp dgn dia dlu..
doa yg aku utuskan utk dia xkan expired..
yes..
i know its sound funny,
even dia sndri ktawa dgr ayt ne,
tp itula apa yg aku sring lakukn utk dia..
and yes..
aku maw tgk dia berjaya slpas dia hbis study..
InsyaAllah,aku ykin dia bleh..
dan aku ykin gk,bla dia da brjaya,
dia akn jdi kbanggaan bapa & mama dia,
orang pling pnting dlm hdup dia..
hmmm..
hope dia sntiasa shat jak...
and jga mkan dia..
tmbh chubby pn xpe..
aku lgi suka...=)
hm...
aku xtaw da apa maw ckp..
nnt ckap lbh2..pdih pla mata aku,
sbb kluar-kluar da air jernih dri mata aku ne,
aku hrap sgt aku smpat jumpa dia...
sbb...
khdupan ne sukar utk d duga..
aku cuma maw jumpa dia..
even itu mgkin prtmuan yg trakhir kmi..
and yes..
I want its to be our sweetest memory..
huhu..
Ya Allah,
tunaikanla permintaan hambaMu ini..
Amin~~

Thursday 7 July 2011

I don't want to fight no more..

I can't sleep,
everything i ever knew,
Is a lie,
without you,

I can't breathe,
when my heart is broke in two,
There's no beat,
without you,

You're not gone,
but you're not here,
At least that's the way it seems tonight,
If we could try to end these wars,
I know that we can make it right,
cause baby,

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

How can I leave,
when everything that I adore,
and everything I'm living for,
Girl, it's in you,

I can't dream,
sleepless nights have got me bad,
The only dream i ever had,
is being with you,

I know that we can make it right,
It's gonna take a little time,
Lets not leave ourselves with no way out,
lets not cross that line,(that line)

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more,

Remember that i made a vow,
that i would never let you go,
I meant it then, I mean it now,
and i want to tell you so,

I don't wanna fight no more, (oh no)
I forgot what we were fighting for,
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
(can we start)
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more...

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for, (oh yeah)
and this lonelyness that's in my heart,
(my heart)
won't let me be apart from you,

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, i'm hoping we can start tonight,
(I'm hoping)
cause i don't wanna fight,
no more.......

It's all a lie,
Without you,
without you......

Wednesday 6 July 2011

Am I EgoIsTiC??

Yawww...
Mcm terdetik pla hati ku maw post ne..
sepa2 yg ada bca entry aku sblm ne,
yg aku mngamuk gila2,
taw la kn mcm mna prasaan aku..
tp skrg ne aku trfkir blik..
salahka apa yg aku buat tu??
aku pn xtaw..
sbb aku rasa bnda tu membebankan aku sgt2,
dia effect almost 90% diri aku,
thats why aku luahkan..
tp bila aku da luahkan,
aku rsa mcm brslh la pula..
aihhh..
agak b*ng*ng ya d cna..
adui...aku pn xtawla..
yes...
thats person tu...
berpun dia anggap aku ne mcm tah apa2..
aku ttap lyn dia baek punya...
tp smpai bila??
smpai aku mamp*s???
gtu??/
aduuiii..
plik jua aku ne..
aduiii...
aku ingt aku xkan lalui lg FASA ne...
ckup la dulu,,,
tp nmpaknya...
FASA itu berulang lg..
haaaiiihhh...
persoalan dia d cne??
aku EGO ka??
Aku EGO ka bila aku ckp mcm 2??
mslhnya aku da smpan bnda ne lma sgt..
law aku xckp..
mmg mletup r kpala aku xlma...
mna beban aku sbagai student,
tmbh lgi beban aku yg that person bgi,
and tmbh lg prkara2 yg laen,
mmg leh gila aku terus...
sory la if that person terasa,
tp kdang-kdg kita tgur ne utk kebaikan,
bkn nak mmburuk2kan..
pnat laaa...
nak gduh2 mcm ne..
honestly aku ne xleh gduh dgn org,
law aku gduh,
msti pmikiran aku xtenang gilaaa..
aku susa maw bfikir..
aku susa maw bt kejaaa...
aku susa maw bljr..
aduiii....
letih...
kalau ya pn,
that person xda perasaan,
please talk if ada prob sma aku!!
aku xsuka diam2 yg xbrtempat..
krang aku cepuk krg,
pdn muka.!!
cuma yelaaa...
aku ttp doakn kesjhtraan that person..
aku mrh2 gk,tp aku taw gk org tu prnh buat aku hpy sblm ne..
jd aku xleh nak sumpah2 that person...
dia masih penting dlm hdup aku...
sampai aku tiada pn,tuhan jak taw mcm mna hati aku sbnrnya...

pelik..
tp mmg ini la aku..
aku snang maafkan org..
especially that person...
huhuhu..
F**L kn aku..
huhuhu...
aku pn xtaw da maw ckp pa..
kpala aku agk pning d cne..
jd aku maw brehat..
huhuhuh..
smpai cne jak..huhu...
esok klas dri pagi smpai mlm..
tmbh stresss..
huhuhu..

Speechless...

GOOD NIGHT ALL...
HAVE A NICE DREAM...
TAKE CARE...
BE STRONG...
BE HAPPY..
NO WORRIES..
TAKE CARE...
LOVE YOU ALL...
MISS YOU ALL...